Friday, September 21, 2007

not good right now

i've been describing the problem as being like a panic attack that's externalized in my internal world: it doesn't seem to be coming from any part, but it's affecting all of us. or else as a tornado everywhere inside. overwhelming, chaotic. really making it difficult to manage to do anything.

the little kids say it's not a tornado, it's exploding monsters. and the monsters are exploding all the time and making a big mess and breaking things and stuff, and if you hide very still and quiet they will not come close to you or get you. but if you move or something, then the monsters will find you and they will hurt you or explode or something and you will get hurt when that happens to.

it's like an internal natural disaster, although i guess that the real world doesn't have to cope with exploding monsters (can you imagine the ads for that insurance, though?).

no one inside is really able to trust anyone or anything right now, so not much communication, because we're all focused on surviving.

i just want it to be done and over with. can't figure out how to make that happen.

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Thursday, September 06, 2007

Still not in a writing space

But I thought I would mention that I went through and replied to a bunch of comments, so if you commented on something over the past couple of months, and you're interested in a reply from me about it, you can scan through and see.

Not sure why writing is so hard now. Probably just readjusting to being back at home. Lots of disruption and trying to get back together and stuff; also, over the summer, I really got out of the habit of writing, and it seems like it's taking some time to gear up again.

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